"You know everything about me! You know what I'm thinking, you know where I'm going in life, you can tell when I'm tired. You know what I'm going to say before I say it! You make me feel protected and safe. I cannot even wrap my mind around the security that you give me!"
Doesn't this sound like the dream relationship? Exactly the way we want our husband to relate to us? We're all thinking "when my marriage reaches this point then we have attained!"
But that paragraph, it's not talking about a husband. This is what David has to say about God. Here is that same paragraph, as it is written in the NKJV:
"O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thoughts afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, but behold, O Lord, You know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain it." Psalm 139:1-6
When I read that this morning I realized I have been expecting way too much from my wonderful husband. I have been putting so much pressure on him to be my all in all. But that is not what God intended him to be! Yes, we need to grow closer, get to know each other better and I should feel safe when I'm with him. And we do all that. But I'm flawed, and he is flawed and only God is perfect.
When I feel like I am not enough it is God Who says I am redeemed, I am in Christ and I am perfect. That is where true security is. And when we think our husband should fill all of our emotional and spiritual needs we have made him our idol.
So I am on a journey to find my absolute security and identity in Christ and in Christ alone! I don't always know exactly what that even looks like, but as girls on the same journey, let us encourage each other in Jesus! <3
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I am on a journey to know Jesus better, and be the wife, mommy and friend that God created me to be, all within the walls of my own little home. <3