If you feel like every moment is a choice to go on, I understand.
When you hold your friend's new baby and wonder what it would be like if you could be holding your own, I ache for you
When you rejoice in the girlieness of my daughter I wonder if you are wishing to see your own little girl twirl in pink just one more time.
When you see that 12 year old boy doing such a good job protecting his sisters and your eyes well up because you imagine your son doing the same to his little sisters, I just want to give you the biggest hug in the world.
I don't always have the right words to say when you open up your heart a little bit about your angel child, but I feel honored every time you do it. And I wish you would do it more.
And do you know what else?
I think you are so beautiful in your mess.
You are strong in your grief.
You are loved in your tears.
You are respected in your bravery.
You are so loved on this horrible, hard, crushing journey.
And you are my hero.
12/17/2015 09:15:45 am
Stefani, this one touched me deeply and brought tears to my eyes. It was really thoughtful of you to share this knowing how bittersweet the holidays can be sometimes. Thank you, my friend! Wishing you blessings!
12/17/2015 04:48:16 pm
Thank you for your sweet words, Marva! <3 It is simply my hope and prayer that it will help give some Mommy the heart to go on. Blessings to you too! <3
5/7/2016 04:13:12 pm
Wow! This brought tears to my eyes! I've been there...our honeymoon baby was stillborn the day after his due date, and the following Mother's Day was a teary one for me/us. We now have a 10.5 month old son and another baby on the way—much joy has come in the morning for us, but I often think of those teary days and the people who let me know they hadn't forgotten...especially on Mother's/Fathers Day and our sons birthday...they remembered our son...and they recognized that I was STILL a mom even though I could not hold my son. That meant SO much to me! Thank you for being there for your friend—it means so much to us to know others remember!
5/9/2016 01:16:09 pm
I am so sorry for your loss, Sharon! My first nephew was stillborn and I will always remember the pain that brings. <3 I am so glad that the joy has come after the painful night for your family. Bless you as your raise your children for Jesus! <3
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